Friendship & Trust

Hey-o!
It's been a while since I update my blog, that's because of schoolwork, courses, etc etc. Gomen ne TT^TT

So, today I'm gonna talk about a sensitive topic for some of you, it's FRIENDSHIP & TRUST. So why this topic? I don't really know but well... Since most of my problems came from this little shit thing called "friendship" and "trust" so I thought why not?

As I said before, most of my problems came from here. Why? Because I befriend a lot of people no matter who they are, and also i tend to be too trusting. I once had a really huge fight with my sibling because her friend and my friend had a crush on the same person. Well, I tried to help my friend but suddenly get drawn too deep into the problem itself. Well, I made up with my cousin, move on from that matter, and don't wanna bring up the problem anymore since it's all just misunderstanding.

I also once had a fight with my friend because i trusted the wrong person and ended up being badmouthed and accused of something that I didn't do. Well, at that time I felt really sad (and also bad at the same time), because I befriend some other guy and get along really well with them, chat a lot with them and so on. So, this A group (old group of friends) didn't like me being in the B group (new group of friends) -- I don't even know why. Not only that, I also felt that my best friend is changing and become another person that i know not who he/she really are. So, i told my other friend about my feelings and guess what? He/she ended up making stories up about me and badmouthed me in my back. Actually, I don't fucking care what she said, but! It felt really hurt when I was betrayed like that! I TRUSTED you man! Not only this one guy, but ALL "members" of A group talks about me behind and spread bad things about me (that's what I heard from my source). Hey! You don't even know what's the matter! And I thought, "Oh.. This is what they called FRIENDSHIP, huh?". I nearly cried that day but my friends from B group told me that I have to stay strong and if they don't accept me or they put me in a leash like before that means that they're not my real friends. The A group also changed their status on a social media and satirized me but I don't give a shit about that so i told myself to MOVE ON. A year after, my best friend become my best friend again. I don't know why, it just happened that way. So from this experience I can make a conclusion that whatever came trough your friendship, if that guy really is your best friend and your match (not in a romantic way) ,no matter what they will always ended up being friends with you (LOL).

So, guys. Friendship is a really BIG thing. It can make you sad, happy, or sometimes pissed (I sometimes got pissed off because one of my close friend's behavior). Befriending someone doesn't mean you HAVE TO TRUST them 100% or 90% even if it's your best friend. You won't have to share your whole life with them, just a tiny bit is enough (but don't be a mysterious guy, OK?). I hope that from my story, you'll get a new experience (and a good bed time story XD). Lastly, I made this not to satirize anyone nor i made this to make someone looks bad, this is purely what I thought and what I felt.

Accept and introspect yourself before you accept and criticize somebody else. Accept if you want to be accepted. And also, treat everyone the way you want to be treated.

xoxo,

ynnevang